“I live like I know what I’m doing.” — Naomi Shihab Nye
This is an opening line of a poem. It felt like me right now.
I’m on a teeter-totter. Some days I really feel like I know what I’m doing. Other days I find myself thinking I am so far off base, I don’t even know if I’m on the field any more.
Random thought over the weekend:
I want to stop saying stupid stuff to my students.
Yes, I thought that. It came out of no where. It hit me in the head.
Yesterday I felt that once again they had pushed me to the edge and I said stupid, repetitive stuff.
How do I stop? I have no idea.
And the worst part — they say the same repetitive, stupid stuff back.
If anyone is going to break this pattern, it will have to be me.
I’m still on the teeter-totter. I guess the first thing to do is to safely get off.