(283) Up-and-Down-ness

Yeah. I made up the title. It is how I have felt all week.

Today is no exception. I have been overwhelmed with trying to figure out my classes this year. Every time I think I have it figured out, it all blows up. Can’t help but wonder if I’m reaching anyone.

My mind has been a whir, and now I just need it to calm down. I have been resisting the blog today. I’ve planned and planned and now I just want to forget it and spend the afternoon reading and napping and practicing music. I wanted to forget this blog.

But then two memes came my way on Facebook.

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So, I’m not ready to write, but that plays right into the Five Questions somewhere, I think. I am rarely ready to write. When I am, it feels like a precious gift. I’m never ready for anything–not truly. And hey, that may mean my lesson plans, too. Every year is different. It is taking a long time to really settle in to what I am doing at school. I just need to move forward. Fighting and crying, getting frustrated, feeling overwhelmed and resistant won’t change a thing. I have felt all of it this week–even today. But it won’t change Monday morning when the kids walk in and we start all over again.

I will be as ready as I can be. Meanwhile, my guitar, my book club book, and my comfy chair are calling me. For them, I feel ready.

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